Marriage

I admitted to Ken that I was lying and have been lying all of the time about how we got married.

Did I ever mention that on LJ? His divorce took so long to go through that it was near the end of December for it to go through the judge's hands. I insisted we get married before the end of the year to be a good tax write off.

But I had several plans for a small wedding. Hell, everyone does it on the beach. Smarmy but romantic. In a chapel in PC for small weddings. There were so many options.

My friends wanted to come but I knew we were going to have to jump on a date when we could.

I had no wedding ring. We got married in Florida because there was a 30 day waiting period in Alabama. The clerk at the courthouse actually had us filled out papers,  And walkd us out to what we thought would be a judges office or chambers.

Nope. Right then and there she married us on the sidewalk.

I GOT MARRIED ON A SIDEWALK AT CITY HALL. I about died.

And the no ring. I had been dreaming of a wedding ring made of Aquamarines. An eternity band style. No diamonds for me, thanks. But it was not to be found and we had nothing. To "make do" we ordered cheap rings. They look kinda cute, but I feel like I am wearing a cigarette band.

Am I being petty? I did not want a bif deal, but.....

No honeymoon until the Mouse fuck all that has left me broken for life.

We had okanned a reception and my close friends were wanting to come down for it. I wanted it at Weeki Wachee with the Mermaids. How cool would that have been.

But you know what? NO ONE in his family mentioned our marriage when we visited. No one. I felt like dirt.

One of the brothers got married to his cunt live in of 19 years and everyone was over the moon.

I felt less than interested about the reception.

And now Kim thinks we should get remarried and have the reception. I can't. Why? What difference would it really make? The open wound is thee, and Ms Barnes' daughter has a steel trap memory. I will think about this every time I see them. Hell, I lost almost 100 pounds and no one mentioned it. I waas there for two nights and no one said anything. Fuck.

So I am in a funk. And sad.