I am bored and have no interest to do anything. That is the sad part.
What has my day been like today? I woke up at about 6:45 am and realized that ken was working overtime as he suspected last night. This always pisses me off because they are NEVER compensated in anyway. Here he is running all these crews and the mechanics make more than he does. Dumb ass. Pisses me off to no end. That and they have promised to pay them for the extra 10 hours they work every week. That was promised about 6 months ago. As well as the overtime pay. Guess what? No go so far.
I have agoraphobia. It is a strange kind. I can go places when I absolutely HAVE to, like a doctor's appt or to buy food when there is not a damned thing to eat. But otherwise I am stuck here. And rarely even go out on the deck.
I need to get outside and at least do some walking, but my neck is on fire and has been all week. That and between my shoulder blades. Finally took a muscle relaxer last night just to get to sleep. Can't find the heating pad that auto shuts off, so I don't want to get burned.
I always have an excuse not to do things. If I don't walk and get some exercise I will never start to loose more weight. I am stuck at 95-98 lbs lost in a year. My goal is 30 more. I have been stuck here for months. Strangely I have kept going down in pants sizes and one top size. Weird.
I am in a 12 that is a bit large for pants and a XL(18-20) shirt. Do you know what a bitch that is? Before I gained all of this weight I wore a 12 in pants and a 16 in a top. Was there for years. Now I am back to a size 4.5 ring and a size 7 AA shoe. That was from when I weight 120.
So here you have it. Babble. That's what I did on LJ and that's what you are getting here. For any new people that are here, you'll learn some new things about me. I guess I will invite in some of my old friends. If so, their eyes will pop a bit. If not, oh well.
I am watching some National Geo on Netflix. Love the streaming. Going now.
*hugs*
ReplyDeleteLove ya sugar. Remember with losing weight your body will take time to reshape itself and add new muscle. The weight may not change as much for a while, but the inches will change and that is the important bit.
I've lost just over 20 and have another 50 (at least) to go. I feel the pain of clothes being weird. Most of my work clothes are open sized skirts so I'm safe there. In about 10-15 I can wear my suits again.
ReplyDeleteI don't exercise at all. My leg and hip won't let me. Maybe in another few pounds....
T--I did not buy new clothes until I had lost 30 lbs. It was too surreal.
ReplyDeleteBut size 12 jeans is too.
And why the hell do suits have NO GIVE at all? They fit or they dont. Stupid suits. When I had to wear them it really sucked because of the boobs. Had to have the jackets tailored and it pissed me off.
I'm agrophobic too. I also get out of the house for dr. appt, but usually medicate myself. It really sucks.
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